Taking back my life

It seems that I spend about 7 hours on average looking at my phone each day. At least 2 hours of that is social media. Another two hours of that would be YouTube most of the time. It irritates me that there are other things that I could be spending my time on.

I used to be a bit better, but since Covid, my life has been mainly naps and checking to see what is going on in the world through the phone. I don’t call people. I just watch.

Right now, I am writing this blog entry in a desperate attempt to keep myself from browsing the internet. Instead of sucking things in from other people, at least I can spew random things out to the handful of people who accidentally follow me.

Ooof. I need to get a rubber band and put it on my wrist. Every time is feel the need to calm myself or escape my situation with social media I need to snap that thing to make myself aware. It is just such a natural reflex these days.

I am also considering trying not to lay down during the day. Covid really helped make that a constant go-to for calming and self care. Maybe I just need to transform it into a seated meditation or a stretching practice. I just had to restrain myself from laying down this morning. It is 7 a.m. and I just finished eating my breakfast. Since I have about 45 minutes before I have to go to work, I figured it would be a good time to nap. I still don’t quite have what I am going to wear ready and I have plenty of dishes to drop in the dishwasher. Let’s do a five minute meditation.